He's PerfectA few years ago I was fortunate enough to meet someone. He came at the right time. He had all the qualities I could wish for in a partner and he was the perfect gentleman with impeccable manners. He had a sense of humour second to none. As we were not living close to each other we would write to each other every day, several times a day. This went on for a while until we were able to spend some time together.
I remember one day when I was waiting for him to arrive, I had butterflies in my tummy, my heart was pounding..... Eventually he was right there in front of me. I stood there looking at the most handsome man ever and savoured the moment as I gazed into his beautiful eyes. He then opened his arms and I just fell right in there. He held me so close and it was such a wonderful feeling. It was just what I needed.
Over the years he wined and dined me at every available opportunity we had to be together. I used to sit across the table from him and my eyes would examine every inch of his body whilst we waited to be served. Anywhere I wanted to go he would take me, it was never an issue, mind you I’m not a demanding woman.
He would always compliment me on how I was dressed, my hairstyle, how beautiful my skin tone looked in the light......
I used to send him little gifts once in a while just to make him smile. I just wanted to show him how much I cared about him.
Our quiet times were wonderful times, he would have me totally relaxed. His kisses were the sweetest kisses I’ve ever know, they would melt on my lips. When he kissed me my heart would race, I would go dizzy and my knees would go weak. He always filled me with desire.
We did not intend to develop strong feelings for each other but some things cannot be controlled. I thought I was being silly, that my feelings were somewhat confused, but they were not. I fell head over heels in love with him. The first time he told me that he loved me happened to be on my father’s birthday, I will never forget that.
So what is the issue then? I love him, but I can’t have him. It doesn’t matter how much you love someone, if he’s not free, you can’t have him. And that is what really hurts......
But you know what, I love him and if it means that we are just friends, then that’s what it is because when you have found someone as fine as this man, I know it is a blessing having him in my life. It may not be in the capacity that I want, but I’m thankful for what I have and what he brings to my life. He's Perfect.
We are still friends, still close......
EbonyLady 41-45, F 18 Responses 18 Jun 24, 2011