I Love Him So Much...

There's this guy. He is the perfection which is Man. Trust me, if you saw him, you'd say the same. He has the greatest personality, an awesome sense of humor, and he has this glow about him that no other can challenge. I've known him since we were kids, and since then, he's been the only guy who gives me butterflies :)

Every time I see him, my body gets all warm and fuzzy and I feel like I've known him my whole life. I have, but not the way you think. We live in the same town, we did go to the same school, and we talked a few times, but it was merely a 'hi' or an 'alright?' I know some people may say that this is just some teenage crush, but it really isn't. When I think about him, I physically cannot stop myself from smiling. I have cried myself to sleep over him at least five times, and it's not because he's done anything, it's because I want to be with him; I miss him.

I'm sure I love him. No other guy has made me feel this way. It's quite impossible to get him out of my head, I think about him 24/7!

He did have a girlfriend, and she was a complete fake and she slept around behind his back. I knew from the start that she would end up hurting him, somehow. I knew it. If I was his girlfriend, I wouldn't even dream of considering the idea of hurting him. It would be impossible to do such a thing, and for anyone who is in love as deeply as I am, I'm sure you understand where I'm coming from.

Talking of dreams, I had a dream the other night that I find so true. I dreamt that I pushed him out of the way of an oncoming car, and I took the hit. The next day, as I thought about it, I realized that I would do that for him. I would protect him from death.

I dream about him all the time. I think about him all the time. Once or twice we have actually made physical contact, but that's only because our arms have brushed as we passed in the hall, or something.

All I want is him. It kills me to think about him with somebody else. He is the only guy I can envision a future with.

So please, if anyone else is in a similar situation, help me. Give me advice. I don't want to let him go, I don't want to ruin my chances forever, because I know I love him. I always have, always will.  

Hesalliwant Hesalliwant
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 15, 2010

Ah, young love.<br />
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My advice, let the boy know you are interested, but don't overwhelm him. Always leave guys wanting more and they'll stay interested. I'd avoid the "L" word if you don't want to see him become a marathon sprinter.

Hi !! your story is sad...im in the same situation...well,more and less,i meet a man in here,internet..it was something crazy,i fall in love,we chat for 8 moths almost every days...and i saw him too in the web cam...about 8 days ago i dont know nothing about him...im sad and devasteded,i dont know what to do...i email him all the time...i sent texs..and until now nothing....im not going give up..so i give the same advice to you ....IF YOU LOVE THIS GUY DONT GIVE UP...;-)..try be happy ..maria