I Love Him So Much...

There's this guy. He is the perfection which is Man. Trust me, if you saw him, you'd say the same. He has the greatest personality, an awesome sense of humor, and he has this glow about him that no other can challenge. I've known him since we were kids, and since then, he's been the only guy who gives me butterflies :)

Every time I see him, my body gets all warm and fuzzy and I feel like I've known him my whole life. I have, but not the way you think. We live in the same town, we did go to the same school, and we talked a few times, but it was merely a 'hi' or an 'alright?' I know some people may say that this is just some teenage crush, but it really isn't. When I think about him, I physically cannot stop myself from smiling. I have cried myself to sleep over him at least five times, and it's not because he's done anything, it's because I want to be with him; I miss him.

I'm sure I love him. No other guy has made me feel this way. It's quite impossible to get him out of my head, I think about him 24/7!

He did have a girlfriend, and she was a complete fake and she slept around behind his back. I knew from the start that she would end up hurting him, somehow. I knew it. If I was his girlfriend, I wouldn't even dream of considering the idea of hurting him. It would be impossible to do such a thing, and for anyone who is in love as deeply as I am, I'm sure you understand where I'm coming from.

Talking of dreams, I had a dream the other night that I find so true. I dreamt that I pushed him out of the way of an oncoming car, and I took the hit. The next day, as I thought about it, I realized that I would do that for him. I would protect him from death.

I dream about him all the time. I think about him all the time. Once or twice we have actually made physical contact, but that's only because our arms have brushed as we passed in the hall, or something.

All I want is him. It kills me to think about him with somebody else. He is the only guy I can envision a future with.

So please, if anyone else is in a similar situation, help me. Give me advice. I don't want to let him go, I don't want to ruin my chances forever, because I know I love him. I always have, always will.  

Hesalliwant Hesalliwant
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 15, 2010

im going htrough exactly what your going through except im a lot more closer to my guy, but i find it hard to tlak to him... you may be in love with him but if he doesnt love yu back it would all habe been a waste of time so make sure he likes you back first, you have to be honets with him and tell him how yu feel, it mite mkake you vulnerable but you never know he might feel the same way, its better to cross a line and regret it than stare at it for the rets of your life...<br />
Good luck and i hope it works out for you... x

just tell him in a friendly way that you think he is cool and invite him to hang out somewhere...then just see what happens but don't be too forward and offer yourself up. No matter how beautiful you might be that can be unattractive:)