A Thing For Hispanic Men
I had an interest in learning Spanish for practical reasons. There are a lot of Spanish speaking people where I live and so the customers I ring as a cashier are often Spanish. Many of them speak English poorly or don't seem to speak any English, so I figured it would be fun/cool/handy to pick up Spanish. I remember one night thinking to myself that if I had a sexual fetish for Spanish speaking men I would be that much more into the language. Little did I know that eventually that'd actually happen. At one point, I thought it might be happening. Gradually the feeling became stronger and at this point I can no longer doubt that I have a "thing" for Hispanic men.
The "conflict" here is that I'm married to a white man. Our sex life is just plain bad though and I often feel like I have a void in life because of it. Maybe I subconsciously became attracted to Hispanic men because the 2 (yes, only 2 in my whole life) white men I've been with were never much into (or good at) sex. A few stereotypes about Hispanic men is that they particularly like sex and that they're passionate in bed. Or maybe it happened due to getting attention from Hispanic customers that I wasn't getting from hubby. I don't know what caused it, but it's a part of me now. I'm attracted to Hispanic men on a daily basis, often hoping one of the particularly attractive Hispanic customers will come in. Sometimes we flirt a bit, but usually they do more than I. I love the flirting honestly, but I'm shy and often guilt-ridden about being married and flirting. I very rarely (if ever, anymore) see a white man that I'm attracted to.
My husband doesn't know about this and I don't want him to. Very few people know this about me (actually only 1 that is no longer involved in my life [ex boss]). I'm afraid of what people would think, since I'm married to a white man and also don't wanna be seen as "racist" or anything (which I know is not true, but still). The two people I'm around most are my husband and my dad. Can't tell hubby for obvious reasons and my dad is racist and I don't wanna hear his stupid comments. I know he'll make stupid comments 'cause he did when I was only into black men years ago. I seem to go through phases with attraction to men. I don't like to think I do, but I do.
I've been into only black men for a period of time, only older guys (meaning older than me, like 30-40), only men with long hair (shoulder length or longer), and now only Hispanic men. Practically only, I mean. An exception is VERY rare. Sometimes the "fetishes" have over-lapped (ie- attraction to a long-haired fellow in his mid thirties, attraction to a black man in his mid 30s). The attraction to black men started at age 13 when I happened to be attracted to one black fellow and we eventually messed around. After the messing around, I gradually became attracted to only black men - for 3 years. The older man thing started from an attraction to a teacher (the aforementioned black man in his mid thirties). The long hair thing started when I developed an interest in "Hair Metal" (which begun from liking Guns N' Roses, which begun from seeing a Behind the Scenes special on them when I watched VH1 all the time). The Hispanic thing is making me believe my thing for long hair has finally ended. I don't know why my attractions run in phases like this. Is it weird? Has it been this way for anyone else here?
I wonder how long I'll be attracted to practically only Hispanic men. I love the dark skin, full lips, big dark sexy eyes, accents. I even find an inability to properly speak English to be cute. How exciting it would be to have phone sex with a Hispanic man. It could be very awkward though, since I only know a LITTLE Spanish. I often look on a certain **** site (which has user-submitted amateur **** from all over the world) for clips from Latin American countries. Then I can sometimes hear them moaning and talking dirty in Spanish. *drool*
I think I've given enough detail now, no?