Is Love Just A Silly Thing?

So I'm new here, but I wanted to share a story just to get some insight. So there's this girl I love... We get along so well together and are so happy when we're with one another, but that was two years ago and now we're hours apart going to different colleges (granted in the same state, but still). Back during our senior years in high school, we dreamed the dream that we would be together forever (as cheesy as it sounds...) but it kept us going. And kept going we did. A year later, during the spring semester of our Freshman year in college, she just couldn't handle the distance anymore. Do I blame myself? Somewhat... I could have called more, I could have stayed up later to Skype... But I don't know... Since then we've still been amazing friends and there usually isn't a day that goes by when I don't talk to her. And we still want to get together again some day and try things over again, because it's not like we had a bad break-up, things just didn't work as we planned. But that's two years from now, and this summer she's leaving the country for a semester and I doubt we'll talk much. It's weird, but I'm terrified of losing her... both as a friend and as a lover.

I know I dwell on this more than I know I should be, but I always feel that deep in my heart, she's the only woman I want to be with. Despite the distance, despite the time apart, despite it all, she's who I love. Is that silly? Am I just in denial? Or is it worth the time I'd invest for a chance to truly be happy? Love sure is complicated..

And just to clarify, no this isn't my first girlfriend lol... Been there and done that. First love is kinda dumb, no offense... :P
scrtasnman13 scrtasnman13
22-25, M
Jan 15, 2013