This Is My Life...

I heard this song about 6 years ago I went out that day and got the cd and listened to this song over and over again. It is my current life, my life in the past and maybe even my future life. I can't think of a single person at this moment I can talk to. I have no friends, well one, but he isn't around... long story. I even fear that any friend I make in the future will go away like they all have gone away. My family hates me - at least they hate hearing about my "pain". Today is Mother's Day. I'm glad I had a good day with my daughter yesterday because I can't stand this anymore. It hurts to know no one cares about me except for her but my parents are even trying to take her from me. I haven't done anything wrong but not live up to their expectations. So... this song is my life story. Every single word. I think maybe I'm done.


"Close Yet Far"

Who said that I wasn't right?
I've lived for years without a life
Don't have a soul on my side
Still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried
Don't take me under your wing
I don't need a hand, don't need anything
I've got a roof over my head
As if I'd rather be alone with me instead

Close yet far
Drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are
And I'll tip my hat to those who can't believe it's me
Though I never never never ever wanted this to be

I can hear the sounds of the city
Sunrise and set are the same to me
A hesitating pulse is good company
And my reflection offers no apology
But who said that I wasn't right?
And I've lived for years without a life
Don't have a soul on my side
Still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried

Close yet far
Drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are
And I'll tip my hat to those who can't believe it's me
Though I never never never ever wanted this to be

Close yet far
Drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are
And I'll think of the days when there was something to believe
Though I never never never ever wanted this to be

karakara1 karakara1
31-35, F
May 13, 2012