Teenage Crush 20 Years Late?

I feel a bit like a traitor, because I am not a "fan" of Keanu Reeves, able to recite every word from every movie or TV show he's been in!

It is Keanu - the man. Keanu - the somewhat isolated-apearing soul, Keanu the "no cameras are watching me"....person that I have such deep feelings for. And what makes it feel worse - it is bad enough it is likely the feelings are to never be returned, BUT, I am not a teen, or a young 20-something.

This is good in the sense I have lived a lot, seen,done and know a lot about life. It is bad because I don't have a mega salary, access to facelifts or Botox or designer clothes and make-up and hair stylists, so I ertainly don't fit the "Keanu's Hot New Girl" sort of bracket.

I am not a hideious cow - LOL. But a "normal" person. And I would give everything I had to spend one day with the "normal" Keanu - just him, no cameras, no acting, just the *real* Keanu.

I have read up more & more about him & his life & family. I worry about him and his sister Kim. I worry the effects of losing his baby, and then the woman who was having his child as well. I have seen some pictures of him SO lit up and happy, with eyes that smile and laugh and are full of life. But I have seen far more of the pensive, "for the fans" or "for the cameras" look.

I would give anything to be the one to make his eyes smile. Help him be real and not be afraid of it. To love and be loved back unconditionally. Don't care about money, fame, tabloids. I just want the chance to make him smile. Make him see the happiness and joy he bestows on millions with his talens, and to accept that as fo real, not some fluke. I want to be the one he can always turn to, always there for him, always happy to help, talk, kiss the hurts better.....nit motherly. But as a lover and a friend and a confidante.

I want to be there as he transitions from an actor, to an actor, writer, producer & post-production advisor. Watch his new company grow and suceed. Help him - toss around ideas late at night in bed, wrapped in his arms. I want to know what is really important to him and what makes his heart skip a beat or freeze over.

I want to get to know "the man inside the suit".


OzAngel OzAngel
36-40, F
1 Response Oct 20, 2009

Try this on for size...Remember to treat others the way you wish to be treated. Then start practicing some real deep self-Love. ( From the inside out) You have the Breath of Life and Love inside you - like we all do. Remember to Love, Protect and Share it with & for yourself & others. Also do the same for the Temple it resides in..Tour Body... Once you can do this the universe will forgive your transgressions. Your life will take on better choices. You Creator has things in control more than you think.<br />
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LOVE & HUGS, livingwell