Gay BashingEver since i was 11 I have been made fun of for my sexuality. I came out to my school when i was 10 but the idea didn't really sink in untill i was 11. A girl at my school named Griselda used my sexulaity as a way to make me miserable. She called me many names and it was not just about me being gay. I was called Butt Chin, Geek Patrol, Lesbo, Stupid Homo, and other names too. It was really hard to tell people so i didn't. I never told my parents or anyone. I thought that if i just ignored it that the bullying would just go away. Unfortunatly for me the bullying escalated into something that i never knew possible. I became so self aware of what i looked liked. I was being pushed into lockers, got in trouble with teachers, and got a reputation as a liar. The more i ignored it the more heavy the pain that i was carrying weighed.
Eventaully I started seeing phyciatrists and other people. It started with just school counselers but then when it became a really big thing it was more known ones thrught idaho.
I wanted so bad for all of it to just go away. I started crying and i didn't want to go to school anymore i would pretend to be sick just so i wouldn't half to face anyone. Even then my parents had no idea that i was being bullied. I couldn't stand the harassment i was getting. I wanted everything to stop just to go away. I locked everyone out and i never told anyone that i was gay i even started dating guys just to convince them i wasn't. I wore heavy makeup and really lose fiting cloths so no one could make fun of my stomach or breasts or anything else. I even went on a heav demanding diet. It was really hard to face what was happening to me. To me even though my parents said i was beautiful i felt like crap. I felt like nothing.
ONe day a friend was staying at my house for the first time in forever. She told me that thousands of kids all over america were telling their bully stories online and were getting support. It's not that i want support but i think that bullying especaill gay bullying is something that no one on this earth deserves to go through. I still get bullied and it is still hard but not as hard as i was before i saw all of those videos on youtube and all the stories on other sites. I'm not afraid of who i am anymore.
yennegamer 13-15, F 2 Responses 0 Nov 26, 2011