I Feel Like This Song Is....

I feel like this song is almost a dedication to me from my ex.. And it was like a long distance thing. He was like twice my age, and I saw why people freaked out because I had just turned 18 at the time. It's not that we had a bad going, it's just that certain outside circumstances forced us apart( my mother), but i don't blame her.. But I do miss him sometimes... It wasn't really even romantic.. He was just one of my best friends...

So judge me if you want. I did this, and I paid for in tenfold psychologically and physically. Does anyone have a say in who you can and cannot love? I couldn't talk to anyone about my problems, and with all that was going on at the time... I was beside myself and considering suicide myself... He saved me, and I am forever grateful.. In turn, I saved him, because he was suicidal too.
This just reminds me of what we had, and I decided to share it with you...

-------------------------------------------------------lyrics from Metrolyrics.com

I hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of
Is waking to you

Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize
I'm slowly losing you

Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you

I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
'Less I feel you next to me
You take the pain I feel
(Waking up to you never felt so real)

I don't wanna sleep, I don't wanna dream
'Cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
(Waking up to you never felt so real)

I hate living without you
Dead wrong to ever doubt you
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away

Oh, how I adore you
Oh, how I thirst for you
Oh, how I need you

Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you

I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
'Less I feel you next to me
You take the pain I feel
(Waking up to you never felt so real)

I don't wanna sleep, I don't wanna dream
'Cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
(Waking up to you never felt so real)

Breathing life, waking up
My eyes open up

Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you

I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
'Less I feel you next to me
You take the pain I feel
(Waking up to you never felt so real)

I don't wanna sleep, I don't wanna dream
'Cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
(Waking up to you never felt so real)

Oh, how I adore you
(Waking up to you never felt so real)
Oh, how I thirst for you
(Waking up to you never felt so real)
Oh, how I adore you
The way you make me feel
(Waking up to you never felt so real)
DeadMasterArsenic DeadMasterArsenic
22-25, F
1 Response Dec 8, 2012

Im not in any position to say this, but i think it is wonderful you met such a person. I dont know what happened, but i can tell he meant the world to you. For him to have saved you and you did the same in return. Even if it is unlikely, I hope you guys will bumb each other sometime in the near future.
On a diffferent note, awesome of you to have chosen Skillet

Thank you. And I was surprised when I found this song. I'm not really into the religious music thing, but I couldn't even tell the first time I listened to their music. So the first time I heard this song was only a few months ago, I listened to the whole thing and at the end of it I was in tears. He's still pretty ****** up, but I heard he's doing a bit better. I was so worried because after awhile he sent me an email telling me he tried to kill himself again by drinking rubbing alcohol. I felt like it was my fault because I was forced to completely cut off contact with him.. I did, though, manage to sneak a conversation a few months after that. He thought something happened and that I was dead...

Thats a pretty big assumption. Well, if its not face-to-face conversation, then email is better than nothing. And you shouldnt blame yourself like that. Life never goes our way, but we still manage to keep a small portion we can hold on to. By hearing from you once and a while, that will surely keep him going.