Husbands 1st Deployment

u ghhhh i hate this ... my husband is deploying on the 28th of dec .. that means in 6days .. im so scared, i find myself crying a lot more that its getting closer to him leaving because i am soo sacred, sad, and most of all mad at him what am i going to do if something happends to him.. i asked him "WHY?, why would u do this to me?" he didnt have anything to say ... im so scared i cant live without this man at all his my joy . i love waking up and seeing his face next to me , i love that in the middle of the night he'll put his arms around me, i love that every time we get into an arguement just lookin at his face makes me start to laugh, because he looks so adorable mad .. there is no other person out there for me .. i always say i wish i was a psychic so that i could see whats going to happen, or were someone important so that i could bring all our men and women home .. i know it might seem like im being selfish or it seems like ill just miss having him there .. but thats not the only thing im trying to make u see .. everything that happens when his around and what makes him and what makes me fall even more in love with him everyday .. i always tell him i honestly dont kno where i would be without him .. because before him i didnt kno tru happiness i didnt know love like i know love now .. his the only person in this world that can make me happy from miles away when something bad like failing my road tests happends and it just ruins my day he makes my day so much better .. i love Daniel . and without him there truly isnt me