In Love??

I thikn I'm in love with my best friend. Its all really new to me and I've never felt like this before. Me and my best friend, Dakeem, have been best friends for about 2 and a half years now. And we've been having an active sex life with each other for 6 months now. The only thing is, I used to go out with his best friend (his other best friend, something like his cousin). I mean they are so close that my exboyfriend made Dakeem his daughter's Godfather. I think i started falling in love with him in June. Now it's August and I think I'm pregnant. I don't think he's taking this as seriously as he should. 2 nights ago he called me drunk and told me that if I was pregnant he wanted me to keep the baby, but when he was sober he told me he wasn't ready and he wouldn't want me to. Then when he was high he just didn't know. I tried to tell him how I felt but he just forgot about it I guess because he changed for a few days and was really sweet but then he went back to normal. I know that we can't really be together because I went out withhs cousin but I wish he wuld at least treat me better sometimes. I really do love him. And I think we could really try and do this thing, if I am pregnant, but I don't think he's willing to be here for me like I'm going to need him... I don't know..
ImJustHidingHere ImJustHidingHere
18-21, F
Aug 3, 2010