I Feel So Heavyhearted

So. I love my best friend. With all my heart. There is only one problem. I live across the country.
We met each other when we were very young, in school, and spent a lot of years together. We were "inseparable" as we were often told. But my parents accepted a business offer, and without telling my brothers or I, we moved across the country. I was told it was for summer vacation. 
A few years after, I realized just how much I missed her. 
And now, after 7 years, I still know I love her.
We keep in touch and talk almost everyday, and she has this way of brightening up my day. I try to talk to her as much as I can. We have both been in relationships, and she is currently in another one, but I ended mine because in my eyes, she couldn't compare to my friend. 
But I'm a realist. 
I know that it would be hard for us to keep such a long distance relationship, even though it would mean the world to me. I'm not sure how she feels about me. Sometimes she is hard to read. I get texts from her that read: "I will! :) Love you!!!" and "Ah, I love you" but I'm not sure if she means it that way. I know that she cares for me deeply, but I don't know if she does on that level.
I want to tell her straight out how I feel, but at the same time, I care about her too much to start a relationship where I can't be there for her. I feel so heartsick. She means the world to me. 
anbugamer anbugamer
18-21, M
1 Response Dec 7, 2011

I feel for you, because i'm in teh exact same situation that you are in...<br />
but i'm the girl and he's the guy...so i think it's even more difficult for me...<br />
years ago he said he dont feel anything for me...but i'm not sure if anything changed since then...<br />
he have a lot of female friends..and he was in and out of love a lot...<br />
yet he's so nice to me and he cares a lot about me...we know a lot about each other...we're so close..<br />
now we're not living in the same country anymore but we keep in touch all the time...<br />
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i don't have the guts to tell him and my feelings for him are killing me...<br />
i wish u all the best and luck and i hope u be together...