I Have Never Been Happier..I am the girlfriend to the best guy walking this planet. I cannot even begin to describe how much I truly truly love this man.
I met him on EP about 9 months ago. Spoke on a regular basis. He has helped me through thick and thin... Stoned, pissed, self harming, panic attacks you name it he was right there. He lives 200 miles away but I felt so close to him. He knows everything about me and I know everything about him. We Skyped every day no matter what mood I was in. Sometimes I was that bad my mood changed every half hour, but he stuck with me, never did he even consider leaving me.
I cannot even describe how truly incredible this man is. 9 months ago I was ****** up beyond belief. So much stuff going on. But he took it on. He helped me grieve for my Nan who died almost 11 years ago. Told me that crying doesn't show weakness. He has completely changed me. But he has changed me for the better. I am a much better person now. I have dreams and goals that I plan to live up to.
About a month ago I confessed my feelings to him. I couldn't hold it in any more, I had fought for too long and I broke. I told him how I felt. I was so scared that I'd lose him and that he didn't feel the same. When I admitted, so did he.. He was in love with me too. At that moment in time everything just went away. I had almost forgotten how to breathe. I was in total shock. I seriously couldn't believe he felt the same. I now call this man my boyfriend.
He came down to visit me yesterday. First time seeing each other as a couple. I have never ever had a better weekend. All we did was kiss, cuddle and talk. We opened our hearts to each other. Whether one of us cried, laughed, smiled together we got through it. I have never felt more secure, safe and comfortable. The mention of this mans name, looking at pictures, hearing his voice seeing him smile makes my heart skip a beat.
I know he is going to read this so baby I just want to tell you....
I love you with all my heart, you are my hero, my inspiration, my motivation, my best friend, my soul mate and my boyfriend. You're all mine now baby and I cannot wait to move in with you, to fall asleep next to you and waking up next to you. Baby I'm going to spend the rest of my life showing you how grateful I am for everything you have done for me. It's us against the world baby. It's our time now. Me and you have spent our lives helping people, putting ourselves in the back, putting ourselves through hell to make sure other people are happy. Not any more baby. It's our time. And trust me when I tell you there ain't no way in hell you will lose me. I'm going to love you, support you and hold you until the day I die. I'm going to be the girlfriend you deserve and It's my life goal to make you happy. I could walk round the world and I still wouldn't find another man I'd want to spend my life with. Baby you are perfect, absolutely perfect and don't let any one tell you different. You are gorgeous baby inside and out. Me and you baby we are going to happen. I'll be damned if anything stands in my way. Ill go through anyone, I'll do anything. Ill walk through hell covered in petrol if it meant I could be with you every second of every day.
See now baby I've written this story, but it doesn't even come close to explaining how I truly feel. There are not enough words in the English language to describe my love for you. I could write about this stuff all day and still wouldn't be enough.
Baby no amount of time with you will be long enough. But let's start with forever.
deleted 26-30 7 Feb 9, 2013