I Dont Want You..... I Want My Heart Back.....i love him so much.he is the my first thought in the morning and the last thing on my mind before i go to sleep.i joined this community with a hope that he is in this and would read my story.
i'm 19 and i'm a girl.it has been two years that i realized my love for him.he is 7 years elder to me.this doesn't bother our parents or our community.but this is bothering me.he is a way matured and i'm still a teenager.he wouldn't think like me.he would be busy in his job,his dreams and goals.i'm just a teenager and so i'm rather interested in this love thing than in my carrier.
coming to our story,nothing dramatic.i just fell for his personality.we are not so attached.he is a kinda reserved.so i don't dare to confront him.we don't live together.but whenever i see him in family meetings or functions,i have that scary feeling.i cant help, but, send signals of crush unknowingly.i try a lot but i just cant control my mind.
and very few times (twice or thrice) i felt like my feelings are reciprocated.i don't even know his feelings.i always feel like telling him but could never dare to do so.if he rejects me ?we are cousins after all and will be confronting each other throughout the life.i just want to know his feeling for me. can any one help ?