It all started when i went to visit my auntie and uncle in canada from england, i have got 3 cousins, 2 are girls who i remember when i was younger, but i have also got a male cousin, who i dont remember at all when i was little because they moved to canada when i was 11yrs old and when my cousin was 6yrs old, so we never got to know eachother.
It all started a few days after i had got there and me and my cousin hit it off straight away we had sooo....much in common and he was just like me when i was his age 19yrs old.
We loved the same music we played alot of badminton, and i have a daughter who is 20 months, im not with the father no more long story!! And he got on with her so well and took her to see the horses etc.
Me and his friends went to a nightclub one night whilst my auntie was babysitting my daughter, we became very touchy feely, and at the club i instantly knew i was into him soo...much, when we left one of the clubs he grabbed my hand, my smile beamed from ear to ear, i was falling for my cousin big time.
On the way home in the car we were sat behind his sister who was driving and we were holding hands, it just felt so good and right!!
A few days later nothing had happened apart from the odd touching and stroking eachothers arm or holding hands.
I said to him one day why is it you cant always get the guy you want, and he looked at me and agreed, i was confused as to whether he knew what i meant.
That night whilst in his room we were watching Jackass alone, and we held hands and we looked at eachother and i told him how i felt he told me he felt exactly the same, we then kissed and it was as though our lips were meant for eachother, after we pulled away it was the most amazing feeling in the world, and we both turned and said how right it felt. We thought there might of been weirdness or a boundarie and wrongness because we were related, we are cousins..but to me and to him it just felt like the rightest thing in the world.
As few more things had happened since then, which you can probably imagine, that felt right too.
We spent a lot of alone time at night, even the night before i went back to england...it was amazing spending every minute with him.
The day we were going we held eachother so tight and he whispered he loved me i said it back.
Since the day i left we have been emailing, talking on messenger, texting and calling eachother. We are so in love...and we are planning on spending our lives with eachother, and i am going to see him in 2 weeks for a weeks holiday and he is coming to england in august for 6 months.
Our families dont know, and if they did they would definitely stop us from seeing eachother as well as being dissapointed so we are not planning on telling anyone. They think were just close cousins.
We dont like the fact that we cant tell them because our family is very important to us, but we know if we love eachother then its the only way to stay together if it has been a few years then we will consider it. But until then we are just going to enjoy the time we do have together.
If there is anyone in the same boat please contact me because im feeling alone right now, some of our friends know but we cant tell them all.