I Love Him So Much It Hurts..

My cousin and I have always been in love ..
We hated each other when we were kids, yet we couldn't be apart from each other. My mom always told me that we would ask for each other all the time, and when we were together one of us would end up crying. He confessed that he loved me when he was 16 and i was 14. I always knew there was something more, but i always ignored it. Then in 2008 we got together and had a relationship for 2 years, until one day he told me that we should take our separate ways. It's been 5 years and i'm still not over him..It's like i love him more and more each day..Our families are very close and although we are not together i know that he loves me by the way he looks and touches me. It's weird ..sometimes i feel like we are meant to be and that in our past lives we were lovers, that's why we are in love now..haha yes i know it sounds crazy, but i have no other explanation onto these deep feelings i feel for him....he's just so perfect for me, everything i need and want in someone, it's him<3

The thing is i don't know if he still loves me, and i feel like i'm going crazy without him :/ I love him with all my heart, but how would i know if he still loves me too?
J05209 J05209
22-25, F
Nov 28, 2012