Kissing Cousins....about 11 years ago when i was 12 me and my family went to tennessee to see my grandma who had just had a heartattack on thanksgiving. my cousin was living there at the time with his mother, my aunt, who is my father's half sister. ever since i can remember me and my cousin richie had these "feelings" toward each other. i remember when i was even younger...maybe 7 or 8...we used to play fight and do all the things kids do when they like each other. they are just so young they don't know how to express their feelings in that kind of way.
so anyway, while visiting them, one night we were sitting in one of the bedrooms that had two twin beds. we were just wrestling and stuff because thats what we did and i was a tomboy. and out of no where he just started kissing me. he actually gave me my first kiss. things got pretty serious...he got up and locked the door. so we were messing around...petting and things and he was dry humping me. it went on for the duration of the trip and we almost got caught because someone was trying to break in while we were making out.
i dont know where that came from...it seems like we've always had an attraction towards each other. after that time in tennessee things went back to normal. of course i love my cousin...i love them all but i dont know why it happened. we never to this day talked about what had happened between us but i know and he knows what had happened was strange. our relationship hasnt changed. i actually met my current boyfriend through him. thinking about it now i feel foolish because after that time i went home and fantasized about him being my boyfriend but i knew it could never happen. i was young and daydreaming about it...it was my first sexual experience although we never had sex. i just wonder why he made that move...i would have never came out and kissed him. but it happened and i dont hate him or blame him for anything. i just would like to know how he felt at that time and how he still feels. he's in a long term relationship now with 2 kids and im with one of his close friends...but sometimes i sit there and chuckle to myself when i think about what happened.