Don't Know Why

My little cousins are just adorable!  I'm the youngest in my immediate family, so it's nice to be someone's big brother.  More and more I can see my influence in them, as they're turning into little health nuts/anime nerds.  I try to teach them something every time I see one of them, and I go out of my way to do nice things for them.  Despite this they say I'm annoying or weird, and don't want to hug or kiss me (the female ones, the boys I'm teaching the noble art of ***-kicking).  I give them gifts even though I'm pretty poor and probably shouldn't be giving away things when I have so little.  I can tell if I had money I'd spoil them rotten, and I'm not even sure why.  None of them are particularly nice to me, and only come to me when they need advice or want something from me.  Love confuses me sometimes, they've done nothing to get gushing, unconditional love from me.  It feels so one-sided and unappreciated.  My father once told me, "Sometimes people love other people for no reason."  I guess he was right.

AppleJelle AppleJelle
22-25, M
1 Response Feb 8, 2009

Im sure as they grow up they will appreciate you more - perhaps they take you for granted a little? I think its neat you care for them so much and try to be a big brother. Wish I was as close to my cousins.