I have just noticed that I've been denying this fact for a while, maybe I just grew up a little or I was just a little blind to see it. Anyways the truth is and here it's coming, I love my father. One of closest friends once told me that my dad really loves me and someday I'll see it for real and well everything she said was true! First if he really was a bad person he'd have left already but he chose to stay and chose to protect me and I love him for that. I don't really have the best of families but well atleast it is a family and I should be grateful for that. Also I left the country for half a month and I really missed him. And I really want to make up all this years for him, I wanna get rid of this illness I have just so that I make up all this years for him for this is another reason that he must be hating it, he hates to see me hurting and it is a huge reason for him to act different sometimes plus everybody has a good side and a bad side, even God's prophets made mistakes before. We are all human. Thank you for being a great dad.