My Struggle................

 I love her…..my daughter …….if it wasn’t for her I don’t know where I would be……its not easy and I wont lie that there are times when I think what if…….what if she wasn’t here……3years of hardship……3years of struggling…..3years of pain and confusion…… before she was born I dealt with 8years of pain and heart throb…….. I tired to show her father unconditional love….. he couldn’t handle it……..besides I had my own dilemma’s and problems that when my daughter was 8months it was time for me to move on and try to find happiness……….it’s been 2years and 4months that I have been on my own with my daughter…..its been nothing but a struggle…….. at this point of my life I wish I could just give up, but I look at my daughter and I know that I cant do it…….
Though I fear that she will one day hate me………hate me for following my heart …..hate me for being true to myself………..there are just times where I wish things were different ………… but they aren’t and this is where I stand ………in the struggle of being a single lesbian mom………………….    
blunt84 blunt84
26-30
4 Responses Aug 3, 2010

Hey dude!i perfectly understand...You are a brave mom..and i am sure she will appreciate that quality when she grows up!

Hello....I agree with everyone else. Just keep loving her in time she will learn what she needs to in life. So just take it one day at a time. Take care...Anto815

What doesn't kill us...makes us stronger! Just a quick read of this experience...I see a very strong woman with a desire to do whatever it takes to give her daughter the best childhood possible! KUDO's to you for sticking with life and her! Keep it up! Do not worry about the hate...just let her be her! Sadly she'll learn hate from the world that we all live in. You show her love, teach her to love. LOVE...that is what is important!

I think that the best thing to do is tell your daughter as soon as you think she is old enough to understand because the longer you hide it from her, the more chance she will be mad when you do eventually tell her. There is nothing wrong with you being a lesbian mother so don't feel insecure about it. I wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide to do. xx