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My Son Makes The Choice To Return To Diapers

This experience I am about to tell you about leads all the way back to when I was a teenager. I had something called infantaliasm, and a bit of it still lingers inside of me. I told my mother when I was 14 that I had this diaper fetish, she actually dealt with it better than I had thought. She offered to go out and purchase diapers for me, out of fear, I said no. This fetish eventually weakened to the point where I didn't notice it anymore. I grew up in a perfect life, roof over my head, food on the table, and clothes on my body. I did eventually get married, but terrifyingly, not for long, me and my spouse had one son at the age of 7. My wife soon died in a car accident with a DUI. This made me swear off alchohol, forever. My son told my wife everything, similar to what I did to my mother, she stayed calm with whatever I said to her, building my trust to tell her anything. The same thing happened between my son and wife. He tells me things to, but not as personal. When she was gone though, he started to tell me things, and I soon found out how courageous my son was at age 8. He told me he wanted to wear diapers again. I was shocked and I froze. He explained as much as he could with his limited vocabulary and I put it together and he has a diaper fetish similar to what I had. This was the most personal thing my son has ever told me. Without hesitation, I told him I had the same feeling when I was a bit older than him, only a few years. Similar to what my mother did, I asked him simply "Do you want to go out and buy some diapers?" He said yes. He truely wanted this, to wear diapers again. From this point, I then realized my son would grow up to be a Diaper Lover, like me before. I no longer was one, but I never thought I'd meet another like me, let alone it being my own son. Talk about low probability. From what I remember, I only got him regular training pants to start off with. When we got home, he gave me a big hug as I gave him a hug back. We went up to his room and I slipped him into one of his pants. Another hug was given, then he ran down to the living room in his diaper, pants-less, and started playing on his gamecube, the cutest thing ever. Seeing how happy he was made me feel like I made the right decision, seeing him this happy again after his mother's death was unforgettable. He still went to the bathroom normally, he just loved wearing diapers, as he only weared diapers at home, not school, or when guests were over. This became a normal thing at age 10. That year, I stopped changing his diaper and he started doing it himself, I was proud to see this did not become a huge obsession, I was scared it would've become one with me had I chosen to wear diapers. My son was able to control his diaper wearing, at such a young age, he was a genius, and had great self-control. He was already in the enrichment program at our school in just 4th grade. By now, he wasn't wearing pull-ups anymore, they no longer fit, he still preferred pull-up style diapers so we bought him those bedtime underwear, Underjammers or something along those lines. He still loved wearing them. This becoming a normal thing, I mostly forgot about it sometimes, although when he happened to bend over, it would show the green waistband of his diaper. Still 10 years old, he had his first sleepover with his best friend that he knew since he was two years old! During this sleepover, I was ordering pizza for my son and his friend for dinner, but when I hung up, I heard a surprising conversation from the living room, I could not help but to eavesdrop. They were playing with my son's new Wii, at one point or another I suppose, I was listening to this conversation blindly, his friend saw his diaper's waistband. I hit myself in forgetting to tell him to remove his diaper before his friend came over. His friend asked what kind of underwear that was. I could tell by my son's tone that he was very nervous. My son did eventually burst out with the straight truth and told him it was a diaper. The friend did not respond. He eventually asked why he was wearing a diaper, was it because of bedwetting? Or was he never pottytrained? Awkwardness filled the living room as I froze in the kitchen out of sight. My son admitted, it was because he thought diapers were awesome to wear. His friend actually accepted this... This is what he said "If you're wearing a diaper, I'll wear one too if it makes you feel better." His friend did end up wearing a diaper for the rest of the sleepover, and thank goodness, I reminded him to take it off before his parents came. Whew. This was just another strong bond between Paul, my son, and his friend, Zach, that would last them forever. Trust. Now, my father did something called Meditation where he just sat down and thought, just thought things over. He was one of the most wisest people I have ever met. I must've picked it up from him, making connections and being investigative to problems, I did my father's 'Meditation', Paul picked this of from me later on. He did not did the meditation thing, he was just extremely investigative and was able to make connections between conflicts and solutions. So, still 10 years old, he asked me "Daddy, why don't you wear diapers if you like them too?" He actually made me wonder, but it was because I was scared of it taking my life in another direction. Truth be told, my son was an inspiration to me when he had the courage to tell me he wanted to wear diapers again. I told him that he changed this about me, if an 8 year old can have that much courage to tell someone, not just someone, two people, that kind of personal information and embrace, I'd might as well give it the chance again. Still being the cute son he was, he told me to try on his. I told him it wouldn't fit so thus he suggested we go out and buy my own. I said it wasn't nessescary, I don't need to be buying diapers for myself. He was persistant, and little puppy eyes made me give in. Of course I was more nervous going to buy diapers for me, more than I was for him. Trust me, it's easier to buy diapers for your eight year old son than for your 28 year old self. When I got home, I put one on only for my son's appeal. It was late at night, so I ended up wearing it though the night. I didn't think to put a new one on when I came back home after work the next day. As I said, my fetish wore off. He's 14 now, now in disposable diapers now, pull-up style underpeants no longer fit, expensive, but I'm able to afford them, whatever makes my son happiest, I'll buy for him. Since he lost his mother, I'm all he has left, and I have to make it count. He still wears regular underwear and uses the bathroom, not his pants. Just likes wearing his diapers. I'm proud of my son, still in enrichment, 8th grade, and he's quite the popular kid from what he tells me, along with his friends that I see form time to time. But whenever he's home alone, he straps on a diaper and lives out the rest of the day 'til tomorrow. We have yet to see how High School turns out for him next year. I don't wear diapers anymore, but I'm likely still a diaper lover at heart, I just ignore it. My son is still very well disciplined, I have taken every precaution to make sure he grows up in a normal lifestyle. I am, truely, one of those more lenient parents out there. I only let him wear diapers because I knew what he going through in his life. I spent most of my teenage life harboring my longing for diapers. I did not want him to be stuck with the fetish eating him alive had I said 'No' that one day. Am I trying to live out my fantasy through my son? I doubt it. If such a thing were true, I would definitely be more involved with it than I am now. Throughout his twelve years of diapers, the most I've done is purchasing the diapers, only changing him at 8 and 9 and his baby years. His  diaper wearing has rarely gotten in the way of anything, like the sleepover I just told you about with his friend Zach. In this case, it just made their relationship stronger. For a diaper lover like him, diapers are a need, not a want. Trust me on this, When I was about 19, I did research on this subject about diaper feitshism, is that's a word. This fetish usually appears in young boys and rarely girls when the child encounters the situation where he/she may not have had his parents around very often. Thus, the person will want to wear diapers to try and revert to childhood again. This would explain how my son got it, losing a mother. My parents weren't around much either when I was young. Both of my parents worked late and I was at a daycare most of the day. He has is stronger than I did, obviously. Will he wear diapers for the rest of his adolescent years up until his middle aged years? Maybe, maybe not. Will he tell his future spouse know of his diaper wearing? Only time will tell, since that one day when he was 8 and the truth came out, his trust towards me only became stronger, he's very open with his feelings to people he trusts whether it be me or his friend Zach. Now, I thank you all for reading about this experience about me and my son, Paul. This is indeed a true story. Trust me, I would NEVER joke about my wife dying in a car crash, it's proof enough. Thank you for your time. My familty certainly is unique from others, but thnakfully, we make it work.
Lewbers Lewbers 26-30, M 39 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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Hey lewbers you know how you told your son that he had the option to wear diapers well when my mom found out that I had diapers when I was 8 she got soooooo mad and I was like wtf I am not 16 and she still doesn't let me wear them but that's what makes me happy and she thinks that I am not a real human being could you help me out sincerely Shane


Should i tell my mom i want to wear diapers? I'm 19 now, but been secretly wearing since 12.


I'm 15 years old, and a couple of months ago, I figured out I like diapers alot. However, I'm scared that if I tell my parents, they'll think I'm crazy. What do you think I should do?

I'm sorry if I made any grammar/spelling mistakes, English isn't my native language.

Please reply with authenticity, support, and respect

Awesome story

Wow!...I was forced to wear diapers when i was a 4 year old because of accidents i happened 2-3 times...But yes every time I loved being diapered...i still diaper to this day...but while reading this story I really wish that you as the teller were able to write and punctuate in English...damn...I am so upset because I relate to this story but it was told in crap grammar and the English language......come on people...please learn how to speak and have let me down...:(

Please reply with authenticity, PEACE MY SON, and respect

I wish my parents were that understanding.

That's an awesome story

Trust me I know what he's been through.
I lost my dad when I was just 3,
and made it into my school's enrichment program in 4th grade (Odd coincidence right?).
So it just so happens that all of this leads me to the same thing he is going through.
Although I have not asked my mom for diapers, pull-ups, or and kind of thing like that, I just can't get rid of the feeling.
Also whats ironic is that all of that stress lead me to be a bed wetter too, but that's a thing of the past.
I wish you and your son the best of luck and I hope this helped.

My 6 year old daughter wears diapers by her own choice and she loves diapers and using them. I think it's totally okay to allow a child no matter the age to wear diapers if they want to or need to and they could change there own diapers. Why force your child out of diapers if they really want to. A diaper would not harm a child plus diapers have benefits such as not needing to rush your child to a bathroom on a road trip or out in public or have your child struggle to hold it if they can just use diaper and change shorty afterwards.

If diapers provide real comfort and happiness for child then why not just let them use or wear the diaper. Plus diaper do have many added benefits for a child who can't go to the bathroom immediately and struggle to hold it and have a possible accident.

Don't complain when she get teased by her peers and she will. perhaps it has more to do with the parent being to lazy to potty train the child

My daughter is homeschooled so she can wear her diapers and she doesn't care if her diaper shows in public or if there is bulge in her pants that gets more knowticable after she wets her diaper. She thinks that a diaper should be okay no matter the age or where she is at.

Diapers are mostly like underwear with more comfort and benefits and it should be someone's right to choose to wear diapers like people choose to wear certain types of underwear.

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I have been in diapers since I was 13, then because I had to. Now I am 17 and still wear them every night. However now I like wearing them. During the day I wear panties with Stayfree maxi pads. Yesterday was an exeption. I had a little accident during the night so I decided I should probably wear a diaper to school. I was all out of pull ons so I had to wear a regular diaper. My step-mom came in and helped me put it on because of the side attachments. Since I had a couple accidents during the week all three pairs of my plastic panties were in the laundry so my mom had my step sister get me a pair of her snap-ons. We're lucky because she has a wetting problem as well though not as bad as mine and we are the same size. My mom helped me snap on the panties and I was all set. On the way home I had another little accident so its lucky I was smart enough to wear a diaper to school. I also learned to keep a better supply of diapers and get more plastic panties.

If it makes you fell better about your wife dieing there was a saying (cant remember where itncame from) that there was a group of teens/kids that they remember things from a past life. Also there's a good youtuber that makes.interesting videos (that's probley (sorry spelling) where I heard that) The name is Vsuauce

I made a few errors due to my kindles keyboard being messed up

I read this and created an account just to comment here. I am very sorry for your loss. That must have been quite the experience, finding out your son was into it just like you were! You have my respect, for doing what you did!! It's been a while since the op; so how is he doing?

I have been here before for something else but I created one today. Its only 10 days left till christmas

Diapers are just a different kind of of underwear and the thing is you go toilet in them

Correct the only reason others with diaper fetish don't say anything about it is becuase of 'Embarassment' (FYI I cant use cammas cause I'm on a mobile device

Thanks for sharing your story. Sorry for the loss of your wife. It is a great thing that your son opened up to you and not shut down like lots do after such a great loss. The way you have handled this was super. The love and support you have shown him and accepted him for him must mean a lot to him. I find it interesting that he wanted his daddy to be happy too, diapers made him happy and he know daddy at one time wanted them so why not get them and make yourself happy like he is. I am also amazed that he never at least wet his diapers. Being an active boy and all, playing video games and such, you would think that he would at least wet his diaper so that he didn't have to stop in order to go use the bathroom. I do understand his feelings. Diapers are to me more comfortable than "normal" underwear. They also give extra padding on the back side, lol.

Again thanks for sharing and being such a loving and caring father.

Does your son pee in the diapers

Why would you ask that?

Thanx helped a lot :) very motivating also and also kind of sad

See I bought some qnd let them found them and then they as if I wanted to keep wearing then and so now they by them for me

Small typo there

i wish my parents would, i have not told them, understand like u
and have the curage to tell them

Well (don't have a camma on mobile device) if you really want them then tell them you cant keep a secret forever

correction i despratly WANT, i dont know about need,advice

i actually have that
i keep this secret.
should i tell my parents?My dad is
here but he cant really understand english
so its not hard hiding it from him but really
should i tell them? i despratly need advice!

If you want them then I guess yea you cant keep a secret forever adventally your parents will figure out

Bed wetting runs in my family and my nieces and nephews all wet (to various degrees) into their teens. I always gave them the choice, wear the diaper or sleep in a wet bed. They all preferred the diapers.

It's good that your son has a supportive parent like you

You are a good dady


Ok, this deserves a flag, why say that

cool my names zach and i have a diaper fetish although i wish my parents would do what you did for your son hes truly lucky

Hello Zach 206.

Zach/Zachary must be a very comman name cuase I'm in 7th grade and there's a lot of Zachary/Zach names at my area

you sir, are a good father.

I've seen alot of the same replys

i wood like to have you for my daddy and keep me in diapers babyfloyd

Hello Floyd.

How do you 'know' everyone, hmmm..... you must be a spy or something like that

What found himwould your reaction be if him using the diaper for whats its designed instead of toilet would you still embrace the idea

Good question!

Me --> einophilia: Your doing the same I am replying to every commet

Your the kind of father a kid should have. You show trust and respect. As a DL myself I can relate to both of you. My Dad died a few years ago. and in the last few weeks I found my old Diaper fetish. Although I used them for a time for there purpose, I have progressed back to normal bathroom routines. I hope I can be as fatherly a figure in my future kids lives as you are in yours

My father left my mother for someone else and scientificly everyone on earth are about 0.0000001% related small number but still

U r truly the father every kid was ment to have I'm happy for ur son that he has found out what he luvs and has a father that will let him openly express it I wish u and ur son the best of luck

Wow that is a very cool story. You are a great dad. It's great that your son has a friend that accepted his diaper fetish. It would be cool if you were my neighbor.

If someone in my area found out someone was wearing a diaper they would make fun of that person and be bullyed my state has just considered a law about this bullying its a real problem but hopefully bullying stops

Yeah I hope that bullying stops too.

I wish my dad were like you. He only cares about himself

you're an inspiration to me

Mee too!

That is a great story. You are a great father. I would love to be your friend.

Wow, you're an awesome father you know that? Certainly a strange story, but real nice of you to accept your son as someone like that! Be proud of yourself Lewbers, by what I've read, you're lenient but he's still well disciplined even after what's happened

It's awesome to see that you do what you have to do to make your own kid happy, no matter the cost, yet you're still able to keep him under control

This is probably one of the strangest stories I've read yet, but I can see that you love your son very much, and I believe you have nurtured his individuality more than any parent I've ever known.

Thanks, it was indeed a unique experience, in both of our lives. Thanks for the sincere compliment!

Kudos to you for being supportive! *high five*!

im 13 and iv had diaper fedish for a long time i wish i could tell my dad like your sun did