I Can't Trust My Husband.. He Keeps Breaking My Heart With His Lies !! I Am About To Break Up With Him ):We met nearly 2 years ago .. We fall in love & we got married last April. I used to trust him so much that i believed every thing he said ! i guess i was a fool.
I caught him lying many many times but he always denied & he promised & swore not to lie again and if he does it again to breake up & leave him !! so i believed him. Yesterday after he picked me up from work he started telling me a story about how he found a friend ( girl ) he used to know her from collage & they chat in face book & all so i didnt say any thing but i smiled because i know he doesnt chat in face book!! i came back home i used the lap top to check my e-mails then i tried to check my face book page then i found his conversations with that girl he told me about earlier that girl was calling him sweet heart & darling but he denied & he told me in his language ''farsi'' it means different !! i kept my self calm just not to spoil the evening. then i found **** movies downloads in the lap top.. i lost my calm i confronted him i shouted at him cried , called him names & told him to pack his things & leave. he denied it again & even he start packing some of his things & went out !! he came back after 10 min saying that he is sorry & he was scared & ashamed to tell me the truth about the movies & its not like he is cheating on me and maybe i am lying at him too !! how dare he said so ?!! i told him its not about the movies its about him lying over & over again. And every time i ask him if he wants to watch those movies he can watch them with me bt he kept saying that he is not like other guys who watch these movies & he doesnt need them cause he has me bla bla bla.
i asked him to leave and that i cant take it any more .. he said he loves me and if i am breaking up with him it means i never loved him all the time.. he called his mom and i had to talk with her out of respect and i told her that i cant forgive him. she made me promise her to give him a chance because he doesnt want to loose me and that i am strict on him ,, and if he lies again i have the right to leave him !! i was shocked that he talks to his mom about these things and he lies to.. and was sad that i have to hear that from her not him !! any ways, today he is acting like nothing happened. i cant tolerate him touching me or talking to me not any more i am not even sure about if i still love him.
i am so sad and so hurt. i dont know what to do.. ?? i feel like i lost faith and i totally give up on our relationship and our love..
please if i am wrong correct me and advise me what to do to make things right..