I Love My Kids Dearly But How Much Is Enough
I dearly love my kids but how much is enough.I always wanted a family cause i was an orphan.I guess because of that I have let the boys take advantage of me in certain ways.I have 3 boys that still live with me and thats not 2bad.It is the fact that they r up all night everynight.This has been going on since they were teenagers.Lights.television,airconditioners or heaters depending on the season.My electricity bill is nearing $12,000,This has built up over the last 10yrs.I am on a program called staying connected and have been paying $50weekly 2wards this debt.Trouble is the debt never comes down it just keeps getting higher.I have continuasly asked the kids 4 power money they say yes and then totally avoid the subject til the next bill comes in.Losing my job last yr didnt help so finances r stretched.Now I have been told by staying connected that they will not accept any payment less than $145 a week cause they want the bill 2come down.I dont blame them they r a company supplying a need.I just dont know what 2do.I only get $400 a fortnight from the govt and about $300 a month delivering the local paper every week.The kids pay $50 a week board.Out of that I have 2pay $250 wkly rent,phone,food,foxtel,petrol,power etc.I have no idea how I am going 2 make these payments yet I need power so I have 2 figure something out.I am at my wits end.My eyes r swollen from crying and I am coming 2the conclusion I cant afford 2live.I do not want 2lose my kids but I am desperate now.What am I going 2do?Just as my life was starting 2feel better now this has happened