I Love My Mom, Even Though She Isn't Here Anymore.

My mommy died about four months ago from stage 4 uterine cancer. She was so brave and strong. I think about her all the time, and even though she is gone I still love her oh so much. She is my rock. When she was alive we were so close. She'd go to my horse shows, softball games, and dive meets. Even when she was sick she'd try to be wherever I wanted her to be. I am still a teenager, and I regret all the times I fought with her. I learned the hard way about how important a mother is. Now I don't have one anymore. But I still love her with all my heart, and I know she is my personal guardian angel.
midgee midgee
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 12, 2010

I am sure she is your guardian angel! Regret is part of grief, just let yourself feel it. It must be so hard losing your mother at such a young age. I was a 27 year old mom of 2 when I lost mine, and we fought a lot (she was an alcoholic), yet I was devastated, so I can't imagine what it's like for you. Don't say you don't have a mother anymore, she will always be in you. The love we have for our loved ones never dies, and that is what gives them an existing dimension in us. This is my feeling as a grieving daughter (I have lost both parents now).<br />
But as a mother, I can tell you that your mother would never want her death to destroy your life. If anything happened to me, I would want my children to keep pursuing their goals, to find love in life and let their creativity flow. So, allow yourself to grieve and miss her for the rest of your life, but give her the gift of becoming the fulfilled and thriving daughter she always wanted you to be.<br />
My thoughts are with you.