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My Mum

Although not the greatest of mothers, I loved her lots.

I didn't know my dad...actually, mum didn't know who my dad was either...so it was just me and her. Mum was a mass of contradictions; firstly, for her life was all about sex, drugs and alcohol....I don't think I ever saw her sober....but, she would always encourage me to read, to explore....to use my brain...

Even off her face on drink and drugs she was still loving, caring and calm....she never, ever got angry at me.....but I had seen her angry at others.....

At the age of 10 I got sent packing to my big sister's, Samantha. For a few years I felt that was because mum didn't like me....

Far from it....she was getting more heavily into drink and drugs, specifically vodka and cocaine....I know she would drink between 2-3 bottles of vodka a day, plus whatever else was around.....heaven knows how much cocaine she used.....

But....she was happy....that was her life....

She died last November....died from a heart attack from too much drink and drugs....but, dying whilst having sex - apparently - she died doing what she loved....

The year since has been very hard for me.....lots of counselling....lots of tears....lots of questions.....

As the saying goes, we're tin at heart and we rattle when shaken....

For all her faults, and there were many, I truely love my mum and cherish the times of fun and laughter that we shared. She tried her best....and that's all anybody can do....

God bless mum....

Amber xx
AmberDuponte AmberDuponte 22-25, F 8 Responses Dec 19, 2012

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Thanks babe....

Amber xx

Losing a parent is tough. Your mom was who she was. Some people spend their entie lives trying to be what someone else wanted them to be. She was true to herself. And that is an admirable thi to be.
Best wishes

Thanks, Max....I appreciate that....

Amber xx

I know how it feels to loose a parent. My father passed away over a year ago. It's been hard ever since. Your mum will forever be in your heart and your thoughts. Hugs, Max2o

Awwww.....thanks. I guess it's hard for some mums.....and it kinda makes me think very seriously about being one myself.....will I be the same, y'know?

:-(

Amber xx

Thank you amber for sharing a story.I related too muci to your story

Thank you....

Amber xx

What can I say, now she will be carried on in thoughts by me too. xW