I Miss My Sister

I moved out of my parents house for the second time a few months ago across country to be with my long distance boyfriend. Well, I had to break up with him after only a month of living here and now I am regretting moving away. My sister and I talk on the phone a lot, for hours at a time and a few days a week. She wants me to move back there and get an apartment with me but I just do not know if I can now or not. My mom explained to me when I left this time that I better know what I am doing because I might not have a place to go back to if I wanted to move back. I'm so torn and I feel like I have made decisions that I thought would better myself but in turn have just come back to bite me in the butt.

I miss my family and I really wish I hadn't moved out here, but I am stuck here now and have no way to get back. I thought this would be a fresh start for me again and both times I have moved back out here I have regretted it. This time though, I wont have my parents to save me. I will have to figure out how to get back on my own with no help from anyone.

I hate the city my parents live in right now too. I love this city I am in now but it feels lonely without my family. I miss my sister so much, she is struggling with life right now and I left her right before it went downhill for her. I feel like I should be there for her right now but I am struggling financially as well. Since I am paying my own way through college and have no car or insurance, I am stuck at the moment. I just hope something turns around that will finally let me go home once again. I told myself I wouldn't make the same mistake twice and I hate to admit it but I have.
clr0214 clr0214
18-21, F
Dec 10, 2012