I Can't Get Him Out Of My Head!!
Yes yes, the title sounds soppy and like the title of a britney spears song but It's true. I am madly in love with my Science teacher. He is 45 years old (yes, there is quite an age gap but that won't stop our love!), he has short, brown hair, brown eyes, glasses, tall and always wears a very smart shirt and tie! He is gorgeous and have fancied him ever since year 7! I have 2 science teachers but I have him for 3 lessons a week and the other for 2 so I get to see him more. I am in year 10 ( ages 14-15 ) and have been told in september that I will be having him on Tuesday's, Wednesday's and Thursday's. It was the best news I had ever received! At this point I already had a teenage crush on him from times I had seen him before and times he had covered my lesson but now I finally get to have him as a teacher! I am really shy at school and find it difficult to make eye contact with people who I barely know so trying to make eye contact and speak to my crush was a challenge to say the least! After a few lessons of having him he began to accept my shyness and stopped picking on me all the time for questions as he knew I get embarrased when I speak in front of the rest of the class. I have begun speaking to him and he is to me the only friend in my science class as all my other friends are in a different class than me. We talk to each other about everything and one day he offered me a lift home because my Mum said she was going to be really late coming home from work. I accepted the lift and he took me home in his snazzy new car! I knew that my Mum wouldn't like the fact of me driving home in a car with a 'stranger' so I chose not to tell her and say I got the train. The next day he acted kind of guilty around me as he drove me home the night before even when I swore I wouldn't tell anyone. By the way people reading, he was only offering me a lift to be friendly, not in a paedophilic way...you sick minded readers you! Weeks went by and I grew more attached to him every day and things started to look suspicious between the two of us and other teacher began to notice the bond we had. After lesson one day he asked me to stay behind after school to talk. He told me how other teachers are always seeing us together and how I should try not to be together as much as it looks as if there is something going on between the two of us. He looked disapointed as he was telling me this and smiled at me when he was talking. My question is pretty much, should I tell him my feelings and does anyone else out there in the world have the same feelings for a teacher or an older man?? WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!?!?