What Hurts The Most
I love him so much I am in love deeply, even though we are not together. I can tell in his eyes that he has something for me. He always trusts me he lets me run errands all the time and lets me go through his desk and clean up his desk/room. But what hurts the most is being so close, and having so much to say, and watching him walk away. And never knowing what could have been, and not seeing that love in him that's what im trying to do. But, I don't like this it gets to me. And I end of being pathetic and cry (which i never do btw) At my 2nd lunch table, I sit there every other day and well they were taling about him and saying how manly, hot, sexy, etc he is. And well i kinda know a lot of people think hes hot and it gets to me. I mean looks aren't everything, i love his personality and looks everything about him i love. I want to hold him tight and wont let go. I won't let him down. I hate when a whole bunch of people like him even my friends admit he is hot, i am like his ultimate fan ever. I can't cope with that. Knowing that they think he's hot and they like him, it just me want to love him a million times more. That should be me with him, I understand he's married, but I can;t go on without him. I'm so close to him and I just want to tell him, but it will ruin our student/teacher relationship, that's why im waiting intill i graduate highschool to tell him i am in love with him. He's everything to me and I won't let go.