A Recollection

I can remember my first day of class - when I was scared of you and your sarcasm and your intelligence and your eyes. I can remember the first time I read one of my answers aloud - the way you stared at me for just a second too long before saying very good and moving on. I can remember the first time I laughed at one of your jokes and then from that moment forward you seemed to direct them at me with your eyes lighting up when I smiled. I can remember the first time I got a 100 on your test (you thought they were so hard) - you told me I was ridiculous and looked at me with such admiration. I can remember the first time I laughed with the boy next to me - you stormed out and didn't say a word the whole class - anger clouding your beautiful blue eyes. I can remember the first time we had a function after school - how I was standing in the middle aisle and you walked towards me - staring even when others interrupted you. I can remember the way you smiled when you finally reached me and the way I smiled - terrified and ecstatic all at once. I can remember the first time you stared at my lips - my short skirt - my bare legs - and then you slowly met my eyes and I couldn't breathe. I can remember that time you guided me down the crowded halls when I was sick - you turned back so many times to make sure I was still there. I can remember the first time I realized I had a crush on you - and when I realized it was more than a crush. I can remember the first time I cried over you - deep, painful sobs - over a fantasy, over a delusion, over something that could never be true.
Most vividly I can remember the first time I wished I couldn't remember.
UtterChaos UtterChaos
22-25, F
2 Responses May 21, 2012

Love it.

Beautiful <3