I Never Imagined This

I've been here for a while and have written three other stories in this group, but for those who haven't read the others, let me recap a bit:

When I was sixteen and in the tenth grade, my English teacher was quite possibly the best thing that had ever happened to me up to that point. I had never been so inspired by a person as I was by him. I went on to get him for another class during my senior year, and I visited him every year I was in college (except for the last one, but that was because he left my old high school). I don't think it's fair to say that I was ever really in love with him, but I have loved him more than I ever expected. No person could play such a huge role in my life, be such a constant in my favorite memories, or have such an influence on me as a person and not be an object of my love and adoration.

Given these feelings, if I had known at sixteen what I would be doing now, I can't even imagine what my reaction would have been. I don't think I have ever heard of this happening to anybody else, or at least not, as far as I know, to anybody on here anyway. Lost? Don't worry - I'll explain what I mean in a minute.

Anyway, last school year he spent his time interning at two different schools as a part of his coursework to become a principal. This year he is the principal of an elementary school about half an hour away from where I live.

Maybe some of you can see where this is going; regardless, I'll continue.

I graduated from college in May, and while I've managed to get a part-time job, I've really been hoping to find a full-time job. I really want to become an ESL teacher, but there aren't a lot of open positions for that. I started sending applications and resumes to schools this past summer with hopes that even if I couldn't get the job I want, I might at least be able to get myself into a school and work until I can get the position I want.

About a month ago I found an email from my old teacher. He said that he had an open position for a teacher's assistant at his school and wanted to give me a shot at interviewing for it first.

As you can guess by now, yes, I got the job!

I am now working under the man who was my favorite teacher in high school. I don't know of many people who get such an opportunity. It has been so nice seeing him every day when I go to work. It is so weird but so very nice.

Every day I am reminded of why I have always admired him so much.

One of my greatest concerns is just that I don't disappoint him. For him, I want to be the best employee I can be. He has always done so much for me and has now given me a great opportunity, so I want to make the absolute best out of it.

UPDATE:  Since writing this, I've gotten a new job elsewhere.  I'm afraid that I need a lot of improvement, but at least if I disappoint any of my bosses it won't be him.  Still, I need to do well because he was the one who helped me get this job.  I owe him so much for so many things in my life.  I did see him once after I got the job, and he was wonderful.  He took time out of his day to talk to me and said how much he'd miss me.  He hugged me before I left.  He thanked me for our friendship - his words, not mine.  I'm so glad and amazed that he considers us to be friends.  My 16-year-old self lurks somewhere inside me and is jumping up and down in joy at that thought.  I can't imagine what my life would be like without him, and I don't want to imagine it.
MsStarrShine MsStarrShine
22-25, F
1 Response Nov 27, 2012

I had to comment because the same sort of thing happened to me. :P

I took over my "crush's" job when he got promoted. According to him, I was the only choice for the job and I was determined to do well. Unfortunately, eventually that was the undoing of our friendship.

I wish that I was able to separate my feelings for him from the job itself. Even though he wasn't my boss the day he told some of my students I wasn't any good at my job, I was crushed. For the only time I can remember, I blew up; I swore and cursed and shouted about what he'd said to a student/friend of mine, only to find out that he had heard everything.

Whilst saying I was bad at my job was hard to hear, if it had been said by any one else at the school perhaps I would've taken it better.

Just try to keep in mind that his comments will probably carry more sting than anyone else's (doubly so if he's the principal).

Good luck, I'm sure you'll have a better handle on things than I did. :)