I Love My Teacher
Last fall, when I was twelve; I fall in love with a man that I can never have.
People might think "A twelve year old? This will end soon, they don't even understand love at all". Sorry to break it to you guys, but no. At first I thought this love wouldn't last more than a mere two months, but little did I know...
I am fourteen right now, and I am still very much in love with this man. Mr J is my technology teacher and I believe my flames of love for him will not die until I graduate or when he leaves the school. I love him very much...
Mr J is a man roaming around the country...I was very fortunate for him to have landed in my country. I love him as a man; he likes me as a student. When I was in grade 8, he was my technology teacher and I was probably his 'star student'. He often complimented me and looked at me a lot in class, he once complimented me as a 'perfect' student and that I'm 'nice'.
The first few weeks of knowing him, I didn't like him a lot; in fact, I disliked him. I didn't expect myself to fall in love with this man, if I went back in time and told my grade 8 self that I would fall in love with Mr J, she would've laughed at my foolishness. But right now, I love him with all my heart; he never leaves my mind.
He has a loving wife and an adorable child, all I do is keep all my feelings of love trapped inside of me. I'm afraid one day...all these mixed emotions would explode...
We had interchange classes and he wasn't my teacher anymore. About 4 weeks prior we interchange, I realized my feelings for him. I noticed a lot more about him, the way he walks, the way he talks, the fashion style he has, the way he looks and most importantly, the way he looks at me (he looks right into my eye).
As a twelve year old child, I felt very embarrassed to look at him knowing that I love him. But he was always on duty during lunch to supervise the cafeteria and I had to see him a lot everyday but all I do is avoid his eye contacts and try avoiding him everyday...I regret all that now, in grade 9 now, he didn't have these duties anymore and I wished he still had them.
I am very creepy, I know that. I stalk him a lot on facebook...I often appear around the floor he teaches on just to see if I'd have the luck to see him or...I'd look into his office window.
All my friends know about this, they don't really support my love and advise me to stop it but what more can I do? Nothing.
Whenever he talks to me, looks at me or smile at me; my heart goes pounding like a drum. My cheeks go full red like cherries. My mind explodes with embarrassment and happiness. I'd record all these dates though, yeah I'm creepy.
He most likely could sense all my feelings, but he still chooses to talk to me a lot. I love that about him...although sometimes I feel like he is avoiding me.
In grade 9, we talked more and I fall in love with him more... My love for him won't die, I don't think so... At times like this, I would try and use holiday times to wash away these feelings but all of them rush back with just a mere "Hi." from him...
Ahh, this one-sided love will never end.
People might think "A twelve year old? This will end soon, they don't even understand love at all". Sorry to break it to you guys, but no. At first I thought this love wouldn't last more than a mere two months, but little did I know...
I am fourteen right now, and I am still very much in love with this man. Mr J is my technology teacher and I believe my flames of love for him will not die until I graduate or when he leaves the school. I love him very much...
Mr J is a man roaming around the country...I was very fortunate for him to have landed in my country. I love him as a man; he likes me as a student. When I was in grade 8, he was my technology teacher and I was probably his 'star student'. He often complimented me and looked at me a lot in class, he once complimented me as a 'perfect' student and that I'm 'nice'.
The first few weeks of knowing him, I didn't like him a lot; in fact, I disliked him. I didn't expect myself to fall in love with this man, if I went back in time and told my grade 8 self that I would fall in love with Mr J, she would've laughed at my foolishness. But right now, I love him with all my heart; he never leaves my mind.
He has a loving wife and an adorable child, all I do is keep all my feelings of love trapped inside of me. I'm afraid one day...all these mixed emotions would explode...
We had interchange classes and he wasn't my teacher anymore. About 4 weeks prior we interchange, I realized my feelings for him. I noticed a lot more about him, the way he walks, the way he talks, the fashion style he has, the way he looks and most importantly, the way he looks at me (he looks right into my eye).
As a twelve year old child, I felt very embarrassed to look at him knowing that I love him. But he was always on duty during lunch to supervise the cafeteria and I had to see him a lot everyday but all I do is avoid his eye contacts and try avoiding him everyday...I regret all that now, in grade 9 now, he didn't have these duties anymore and I wished he still had them.
I am very creepy, I know that. I stalk him a lot on facebook...I often appear around the floor he teaches on just to see if I'd have the luck to see him or...I'd look into his office window.
All my friends know about this, they don't really support my love and advise me to stop it but what more can I do? Nothing.
Whenever he talks to me, looks at me or smile at me; my heart goes pounding like a drum. My cheeks go full red like cherries. My mind explodes with embarrassment and happiness. I'd record all these dates though, yeah I'm creepy.
He most likely could sense all my feelings, but he still chooses to talk to me a lot. I love that about him...although sometimes I feel like he is avoiding me.
In grade 9, we talked more and I fall in love with him more... My love for him won't die, I don't think so... At times like this, I would try and use holiday times to wash away these feelings but all of them rush back with just a mere "Hi." from him...
Ahh, this one-sided love will never end.
By:
TheInvisibleGurl
Age:
13-15
,
Female
