I Love Older Men Who Love Younger Girls
After the thing with the janitor... I was so confused for weeks. I knew it was wrong because Mom always told not to let other people see me naked, but it excited me so much... I had already been touching myself a lot for along time and I liked it. So here I am 11 and already had the experience with my friends dad and now this. I was like changing everyday about the way I was feeling. One minute I would feel a little guilty and the next it would excite me to no end. I also became so aware of how men were looking at me now. I noticed if it was like the little girl I was or if they had a different look the way the janitor had looked at me. I even began to notice how they would treat me. If I was just another little girl and they weren't interested in me that way it was, like normal? But, if it was like the janitor then it was like they paid closer attention me, more interested in what I had to even say. Look at me closer and want to be closer to me physically. Yes I notice if they would just look at my face or look me up and down. But, I was looking at men or boys differently too, I couldn't help but glance at they pants... knowing what was there and what it might look like... Crazy, at 11 and be wondering what their penises looked like... but worse of all, it excited me. If I saw a man and I could tell he was getting hard from looking at me, I got excited and my heart would start pounding and I would get nervous... all I could do or I should say want, was to see it, or for them to see me... just like the janitor or my friend's dad...
It was so hard not to tell my friends because they would talk sometimes, I knew it was normal for them to say things like " look at that pervert looking at us" or "dirty old man" , so I couldn't say " well, I let one *** on me and I loved it" ... or " I can't stop wanting to touch a penis or ****,lol or that I'm thinking I want them to touch me" I would have been shunned from all my friends at the time. I was like in my own little world and had to be so private with my feelings.
It was so hard not to tell my friends because they would talk sometimes, I knew it was normal for them to say things like " look at that pervert looking at us" or "dirty old man" , so I couldn't say " well, I let one *** on me and I loved it" ... or " I can't stop wanting to touch a penis or ****,lol or that I'm thinking I want them to touch me" I would have been shunned from all my friends at the time. I was like in my own little world and had to be so private with my feelings.
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ada12
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22-25
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Female
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