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Its How I Get Out My Feelings

When I was 5, I had my parents sign me up for soccer. Thats little kid soccer, so it wasn't like we had to do much. Then I continued to play every year. I loved it so much that I played year round. From third to fifth grade, outside of the field I was weak and wimpy. But once I was on the field I was strong and unbreakable. I would bump into a counter at my house and cry, but I could get hit in the arm and have a bruise the size of a soccer ball and I would shake it off. When I scored my first real goal in second grade, it was out of anger. My mother was supposed to come to that game. It was the first of the season. How could she not go? The whole game I was thinking about it. I wasn't paying attention to anything, just dribbling towards the goal. I ran and ran until no one could reach me. I kicked with so much power just because I was mad and the ball hit the net. I was so surprised. My mother never came to another one of my games. She just wouldn't. She told me she was always busy, but that wasn't true. She didn't go because she didn't like my stepmom. It wasn't fair. In middle school I played on both the 6/7th and 8th grade team. When I went to visit my mom (she had moved across the country) she signed me up to play. I still love soccer so much, and once I'm on the field I put all my feelings into the game. Its sort of like my release.
beaniebaby13 beaniebaby13 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 2, 2011

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Yes all parents are that way.

I am too. Even though she can be a pain sometimes.

I am glad you do have someone there for you.

Thanks, it wasn't that long. <br />
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My stepmom did fill in what my mom didn't do. She went to every game and every practice and it made everything better.

Sports are a great way to release aggression. It sounds like this worked for you and you are very good at soccer today. I am sorry that your mom was not there to support you, but I hope your step mom helped fill some of what you missed from your mom. You sound like a very smart and senseable person and I think you turned out alright. You were smart to take your agression out in a way that did not cause you or others problems. So many in your situation take out their anger by fighting and such and have problems for themselves. Congrats for handling this serious problem in a great way.<br />
I hope you score a few more this season.<br />
Wow sorry this turned out so long.