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I Love Somebody I Shouldn't

Resisting Temptation

By: Shierke
Written on February 14th, 2008
I so badly wanted to e-mail or something today. To wish him to have a good day, and maybe even hear about some plans to see a girl or something.

But i know it wouldn't have gone that way- all i would have gotten was bitterness for decisions that i wouldn't change and mistakes i made that i couldn't change even if i wanted to.

Sometimes i wish we hadn't gone that extra bit that made us a "couple" for a while.  I miss my best friend sometimes.

Here's hoping that somebody's treating him right tonight.

By: Shierke
Age: 26-30 , Female
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  • Shierke
    Shierke

    i think sometimes he feels the same love and understanding that i have for him. In those times he's really friendly and shows concern that my hubby is treating me alright, and expresses joy in my successes and happiness.



    other times (i think) he thinks im a self serving person who doesn't deserve to talk to him at all anymore him as anything. At this time, he flaunts all my failures and mistakes in my face and makes me feel like crap honestly.



    It's a terrible obsession to have to live with- i still talk to him sometimes because i just cant let him go. He was my best friend for 8 years before we started doing the couple thing, and then it was just a small-no commitments thing because of the distance.



    but it just didn't work out- I'll take some of the blame but it isn't all on me there..... it just wasn't meant to be.



    doesn't kill the feelings though. I've been in love with him to 10 years, that doesn't just vanish because you wish it wasnt there anymore.

    Feb 14, 2008
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  • Deejay67
    Deejay67

    Does he share the same passion for you? How touching. Hurts beyond words when things don't go right. Wish I had some answers as I have feelings the same way and I can't do a thing about them.

    Feb 14, 2008
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