Dear Marine,

I dreamed about you again last night.  It was chaotic, and unlike the other dreams we weren't the only 2 people in the world.

There's a lot of things i wish i could say to you right now.  Like the fact that i will never stop missing my best friend.  About how much i hate that you joined the marines and went so far away, where i couldn't reach you with my hands or my heart.  That my dislike for the marine core comes completely from the way they stole you away- pure selfishness i know but it's true.

For a while my good friend,  walked past boyhood and turned into a man that i neither knew nor understood.  You were still in there somewhere- i know now, but it wasn't enough.  

I'm not the kinda girl who can just "fall in line" with what is iron clad rules and lifestyles. I cannot accept some things in my life, and being separated from somebody i need to hold me when the world becomes dangerous and sharp in my mind is not acceptable.  I'm sorry for that but I hardly survive in a world where all the rules are mine for the making and changing.

I love you now and always
be happy


Shierke Shierke
26-30, F
2 Responses Feb 19, 2008

there's always private messages..

How utterly depressing. I admire your love girl...Ugh...I'd like to talk to you's important...