What Can I Do?

I met someone a few months ago and now I am in a relationship with them. I fell in love with them quickly after becoming fast friends and I am so lucky to have her. We got to where we could tell each other everyone, and I thought this would be my "Happily ever after" but I guess I was wrong.

She and I were talking just the other day and she starts crying, and I ask her, "J, what is wrong?" and she just looks at me and says, "I am so sorry. I am so sorry." I ask her, "What? What do have to be sorry about?" She looks down and mutters just loud enough me me to hear the haunting words of, "I am dying." When she said those words, it is like the ground broke beneath my feet and now I don't know what to feel or do. I couldn't even speak any words back to her. All I could feel was hurt. I have lost people before, and maybe it is why I have such a problem with death, but to know about it, to know it will come and take my love away from me so early, I just don't know what to feel. I hate myself because part of me feels afraid to continue on with our relationship knowing death will take her. I just hurt and I don't know what to do. I told I would always be with her, but this fear is infecting me, and now I don't know what to do. How do I gain the courage to live out the rest of the short time I will have with her? I just don't think I am strong enough.
ThePeanutTerminator ThePeanutTerminator
18-21
2 Responses Jan 23, 2013

I would absolutely continue with the relationship. Really special relationships are few and far between in life. I am in a similar situation and the person I am dating keeps pushing me away, in part, because she's protecting me and in part because she doesn't have the energy. I don't know what the real truth is. If she doesn't have the energy I can respect and honor that by not imposing. But, if she is trying to protect me, it will hurt me much more to have missed the relationship than to have had something special and then lost it.

Have you hear the saying " you don't know what you've lost until its gone"? This definitely goes for you.. Life is too short and no one ever knows when their end is truly coming! You never know what your health is going to be like layer on.. alI i can say is if you honestly love her, you'll stay with her regardless the bad news. just think about it; would you want her leaving you if the tables were turned?... Good luck with everything

Sorry for the mis spelling :/ have glaucoma and it looked ok until I re read it... But you get the point :)