Playground Love

I met this dude in fourth grade and he was one of my best friends. I kinda started to like him as more than friends, but the next year he wasn't in my class so I figured I should move on. A mutual friend kept telling me that he talked about me a lot and that he really liked me, but I didn't really pay any attention since I was only in fifth grade and not ready for dating. By sixth grade EVERYONE was telling me that he was in love with me and he made one of his friends ask me out, but, me being super shy, declined. During the next three years I thought about him from time to time. I don't know how to describe it, but ever since I first met him I felt as though we'd get married one day. It just seemed like such a given that I never really thought about it. Then one day I was talking to my best friend and I don't know words started to fall out of my mouth and I proclaimed to her that he was the one that got away. She was the only I ever told about any of this (Until now). During the day I don't think about him, but every once in awhile I'll have a dream that we're trying to get to each other, but can't. I know he still thinks about me. I catch him staring in the hallway and at the beginning of this year I noticed all his friends (the same dudes that we went to elementary school with) all turning around and watching me walk by. I just want to talk to him one time, just to see if that connection is still there.
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Jan 15, 2013