There are so many things that aren't right with my secret obsession. My crush, the person I love so much, it kills me to be away from her. First off, it's a she, I'm a she. We're both girls. Secondly, she is my big sister. Even though I am adopted, and have no blood relation, we still are sisters. People look down upon ******. Is it still ****** if we aren't really related? I don't think it matters, because I love her, more than I love family. I love her too much. She doesn't know, but I want her to. Why can't it be simpler? Why do I love her?