I Don't Want to Love Him Anymore
He isn't mine, he was for such a long time and in my mind of mind's he is. I have not felt that feeling of pure happiness since we went out separate ways.
I shouldn't love him because he's is someone elses. We've hurt her in the past and I would never ever want to do it again, but because I love him situations arise that if she ever found out it would break her heart.
I want to wake up tomorrow and be free if him, he haunts me, I let my feelings for him destroy my last relationship, sure it wasn't even fair of me to get with this new guy but I figured I could swap my love for the first guy with that for the new guy, but I fell for him on top. I was plagued by comparison the whole way through, everything from his kisses to the way he held my hand, it was different which made me unsure. I clung to him like a wet blanket for fear of being pushed away and in the end it got too much. And I was left doubley broken hearted.
I need to be over him and sort my life out, to sleep again, to enjoy going out, to see my friends and most of all to love again, someone who is worthy.
Anyone got a miracle cure? x