She Hurts MeShe hurts me, but don't think that she realizes it.
We agreed to "just being friends," because she doesn't feel that she is relationship material. I'm getting over that loss. It was tough accepting her conditions of our "relationship." As friends, we still get to associate closely, just not too close and not often. It's better than nothing. I still love her.
She wasn't relationship status because she was entertaining the talk of another guy - a guy I used to call friend. She takes him on as her personal confidant, she breaks with me, they grow closer, she doesn't give into him, and then he tells me what's going on. Life went from simple bliss to chaos in a fairly short amount of time.
She lends money to this loser who probably won't pay her back. She owes me money, quite a bit of money actually. Today, she was giving me a story on how she might not be able to keep to her word and give me what she's promised me. She bats her blue eyes and smiles and touches my arm as if we were still more than friends. What the heck is going on here?
I do love her dearly, and I will always be that good friend I promised her I would be. However, I swear to myself and the world, I'm not letting her slip out of this promise with a bat of her baby blue eyes and a smile. (I need the money too bad.) She should have thought of that before choosing not to be relationship material.
Doggonnit 41-45, M 4 Responses 2 Apr 17, 2012