Almost Fully HealedThis is a continuation of my story before, I talked with him, it's all fine now, he helped me, he made me laugh, we chatted, it was all good. I told him what's wrong and such, and how he could improve a bit on his talking. I told him, he didn't have to worry about me breaking up with him, and he said for sure he wouldn't with me(We got into a argument way back and I was crying and he told me once we got closer and months later that back then he thought I was going to dump him, I told him that didn't even cross my mind back then and he said oh) But I clearly told him, that no matter how many times he makes me cry and heals me and makes me feel all nice and good, no matter how many mistakes he makes.
I would, and will, ALWAYS, love him, with all my heart and more, I would never love another man after him, and I would never love a man while I am with him. I don't even find people attractive anymore when I look at them (males) yet they are models and such, they look...like nothing. It's like, my boyfriend is the model, the amazing good looking, funny and sweet, nice and kind, soothing, and smart. Just incredibly the best in the world! No one compares I'M SERIOUS.
I still feel a bit distant from him but it's better than before, over time I'm sure that distant will close and everything would be how it was before.
I reassured him he doesn't have to think that I might break up with him or something anymore, because no matter what, I am going to stay strong and be patient, he is new to having a girlfriend, and because we are in a long distance relationship, it's hard that he can't hug me or anything to comfort me, and he's got only words and...emot from skype. But I keep telling him that's all he needs to comfort someone like ME but he never learns lol. I'm sure he will, he just draws blank when he hears me cry.
But it's okay, I can handle him, I can bare with him no doubts and seconds thoughts about that. It's worth it, HE'S worth everything.
If he needed anything I would jump to do just that, fast and running. Anything from a store, on a snowy day, no snow is going to stop me from giving what my boyfriend needs. I would do anything, put myself in danger, just for him.
He is my everything, my all. Without him, I have no reason to live, not hope to look for, no dream to make come true, no goal to accomplish. I have nothing without him, he is my life source and I...I am simply at my knees with him. He is perfect and I...I am mostly the opposite of that, not worthy for him at all, and yet he says such nice things about me. I love him to no ends...and I hope he does to me too, I hope that he loves me with all his heart, I hope he would care for me, and love me forever as I will for sure for him.
I love him only.
He has my soul,
I will only and always be his, and I hope, that he, will and is, always mine too.