I Love The Ocean

But unfortunately, I never even went to the beach in my city. Not once in my lifetime. I feel so bad, because for one I have never done it. Second, I just hate that I am so overweight. I always do anything fun. I know that the oceans are are in the Atlantic and Pacific. But it is hard for me to walk by the ocean, when my body look the way it is. I hate seeing commercials of other people looking real skinny, and I am still fat. I just feel ashamed sometimes. It is like I want to bring miserability by me. I have to stop attracting miserability. I haven't went to any parties, because of my weight. How did I spend so much time eating, and not loosing weight. Now my mom constantly whines, and I am sick and tired of it.

chicago54 chicago54
22-25, M
Feb 16, 2010