Traffic Lights

They aren't anymore, but a couple of years ago, Relient K was my all-time favorite band.  I still really love them, but I've found bands I love better.

I was going through a phase in my life where I was secretly depressed, to the point where I couldn't tell anyone.

It's not that I wanted to die, but I wanted to do something to make my life more interesting.  I wanted to do ANYTHING that would make my life more interesting.

I found myself in my car, running errands.  I was at a particular intersection that's usually fairly busy, right by a highway exit.

I was stopped at a red light, and I found my attention drawn to the pole of traffic lights.

I was in the lane to turn left, but I suddenly had the urge to just drive straight into the pole, just to see what would happen.

Just as the light turned green, however, the song playing on my stereo ended, and was replaced by, "Here I sit, looking at the traffic lights.  The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites."

I didn't know how to take it.  I was too overcome with guilt at my urge to cause myself pain that I forced myself to make the left turn, and I continued on to my desination.

A few minutes later, when my self-destructive urge had passed, I found myself contemplating the irony that the object I had wanted to hurt myself with is a very effective metaphor for hope, lost hope, and emotional stagnation.

I was at a point in my life where I had no hope left, but instead of viewing the traffic light metaphorically, I viewed it as a literal weapon.

From that day on, I've begun to see metaphors in many everyday objects.

objects that don't usually receive a second thought.

And I owe this expanded mental capability to the brilliant lyrics of Matt Theissen, the lyricist for Relient K.

So thanks, man.  I love your hair, but I love your brilliance even more.  Thanks for opening my eyes, and for saving my life.

stephuhknee stephuhknee
18-21, F
Mar 15, 2010