It Makes My Knees Weak

I love being a transvestite. I've been one since the moment I first tried on a pair of pantyhose at the age of 12. I didn't understand it fully at the time, but the desire to transform myself into the female image was burned into my soul.

I like the term transvestite. I prefer it to the term crossdresser. Lots of people try distinguishing a difference between a transvestite and crossdresser, but the terms are synonyms...literally. Most people that try to make some sort of differentiation, do so based on extremes.

For years I wished I was not a transvestite. I wished I didn't have such a strong desire to wear women's clothing. I certainly wished that wearing women's clothing was not such an erotic, sexual experience for me. I wished that going through the process of transforming myself was not so pleasurable. I wished it would all go away. None of those wishes ever came true, thank goodness.

Today, I am happy with who I am. I am married to a wonderful woman who accepts me as is. I'm sure that my wife would have preferred it if I were not a transvestite, but even she recognizes that this is not such a bad things, and that there are certain advantages for a wife who is married to a tranny.

For me, wearing women's clothing is a very important part of my life. When I take the time to dress up nicely, coordinating my clothes, accessories, doing my makeup and hair...I feel feminine, weak kneed and in a weird way, very vulnerable. At this point, I am willing to do things I would not consider otherwise. Fortunately, my wife doesn't take advantage of me when I am in this state. Although I do wish she would consider a *******...but that's another story.
BizSuitStacy BizSuitStacy
56-60, T
2 Responses May 18, 2012

You've wrote my life there Stacy x

Hi Debbie - so many of us here on EP have gone through very much the same thing! It helps to know we aren't alone.

Much like you after the first time of trying on one of mother's girdles I knew the desire to transform into a female was there for life. Wearing women's clothing and projecting a female image has been a most important and enjoyable part of my life.

Hi Brigitte,

Yes, I think it is this way for transvestites. There is something so right about transforming ourselves into the feminine image of our choice. It's more than just an urge or a yearning. It's really a compulsion.