I am the creator of this particular topic and wanted to share some of my life and what I have been experiencing lately...It has taken a lot out of me to write this so I am warning the two that do not belong here...DO NOT COMMENT MY STORIES!
So yesterday I was coming home from work my usual route and had this urge...I wanted to drive my car off the road and into the water! Not to commit suicide or even hurt myself just to feel something! My emotions have been in shambles lately and I have pin pointed it to one thing in particular that is causing it...I am not satisfied with the outcome concerning my mother in law. I know this is the brainwashing site but you see it all ties in!!!! Last night after I fought that urge then took off and sat by the waters edge crying I realized how much I need to talk to my husband. I was debating on running away but it would kill me not to be with him. Then I thought maybe we could sell the house and move to the mountains. We wouldn't have computers or phones, maybe we could live off a garden and hunt. Crazy thoughts were passing through my head then I came to the "light" at the end of the tunnel...It was not what I expected! To my left I saw a easy path, but I had to take it alone...which meant leaving my husband despite my love for him or the life we have worked so hard to achieve. And to the right, there was a harder path we could take together. I chose the right path. I know there is no resolution to the problem I call Mother In Law! I can not ask him to walk away from her and her destruction for good, in the end I know he will resent me for even suggesting it. So I guess I will continue to suffer knowing that she ultimately got away with my betrayal. It will bother me forever and I know this is not the end. I think that's what gets to me most, the fact that this will start up again...she will have one more nasty jab, and I will be left to pick up the pieces for MY FAMILY...I will be told I brainwashed him and that he could do better...all this when I work hard for my life, I work hard to keep him happy. In the end I guess it is never enough.
This was originally written back in May. It is now almost July and we have not heard from his mother since the week this was posted. I guess in the end I did not have to give him that ultimatum...She did it herself. She has not called us and we have not called her. We are doing okay though, better then I thought we would. It hurt him so much in the very beginning and I'm sure it still does but he is doing okay with it. I never thought she would just write him off like that, I still wonder when she will strike again?!?