Accepting My Crossdressing
Like many who cross dress I had struggled with this for many years. I started as a teen wearing my mom's things then whenever I had the house to myself for extended period of time I would dress in her things. Tho I really enjoyed it I still felt guilty after. When I was older and on my own I began to experiment more and bought some things to wear. I loved it but after a while I would purge get rid of everything and say I was done.Only later to buy more woman's clothing and start all over again. it was a vicious cycle.
I finally came out to a girlfriend, she was much older and wiser than me and she accepted this after her initial shock. We talked and she took control of me and we had a lovely 2 year relationship where I learned to accept my cross dressing. I also learned I was submissive to women, but that's another story. We incorporated my xdressing into our love life and I really enjoyed her control. There were weekends when I spent the entire time in femme. We would travel to other towns nearby and go out as girlfriends, to movies, dinner, shopping and even a concert. We never let our friends know.
When the relationship end due to me moving across country for a job. I knew I was hooked. This was 30+ years ago I never again purge or quit. I still feel guilty and still keep 2 sets of friends and lead a somewhat double life. But I'm happy