Wearing Women's Clothing Is So Comforting But ControversialThe ex
I feel very comforted and confident in women's clothing to the point that I hate wearing men's clothing and find it pretty much drab, dull, dumpy, and uncomfortable. I believe our skin becomes hypersensitive to the wonderful feeling of having nylon, silk, satin, taffeta, organza, and other fabrics not commonly seen in menswear. I like the feeling of these fabrics dry against my skin but I love the feeling and more intense colour sensation when I go into the water fully clothed. There is so much more choice and exciting variety in styles of women"s wear. Some of us are OK with just wearing undergarments, others wear outer clothing but only in private, some go out in the street with unisex looking outfits, some dare to be so bold as to appear in body as a man with obvious women's outfits, and others go even further with shaping ad ons, wigs, and make up.
I believe this passion of mine is relatively harmless (not to mention expensive) but I must face the consequences of this choice. If we keep it a private secret (usually with a sense of guilt or shame) then maybe we can get away with being accepted by our partners, friends, and general public. I have gone public with my cross dressing and swim fully clothed in crowded public pools. Some consider me a freak but other more open minded people accept me and talk with me. My habit isolates me from my family and many people. My closest friend, like me, is a male heterosexual cross dresser too. I hate to think what is on the minds of most men when they see me. I feel much more comfortable with women but they too tend to reject me as a possible friend or mate probably because they feel embarrassed in front of me with my clothing or think my clothing is more important than their bodies against my skin.
With wearing women's clothing, I have made it a poor substitute for a girl friend. There are also many single people who own dogs and cats and use them as substitutes for partners because it "comforts" them. It is unfair that our stereotype society accepts that but not our cross dressing. CDing I believe has also transformed me as well. I have noticed an increase in personal sensitivity, my breasts have grown, I don't feel as temperamental but I also am not sexually aroused as much and my testosterone levels are low. Does embracing one's feminine side and cross dressing make the brain have that effect on me?
I am still proud and confident in who I am, what I believe in, how I wish to dress, and how I treat other people. It is sad that there are intolerant people who treat others with disrespect, but I cherish the people who are kind to me and respect me for who I am not what they want me to be. I hope our society will transform too and become more open minded and accepting and loving of all people. The woman that I eventually hope to be with will embrace these beliefs too.