When Did I Lose My Thirst For Knowledge? Why?I used to joke around that I'd be a professional student and never stop going to school because I loved learning. All my life I was fascinated by all the new things that I could learn. I surrounded myself by books, I watched the History channel, PBS, Biography, TLC, just about anything. I had all of my biggest crushes on my professors in college, one in particular, because of his constant quest for knowledge. He made me want to leave class every day and find the answer to yet another question about the world.
So where did it go? I just feel so drained. The last few years of school began to sap all of the energy out of me. Thankfully, I graduated. I have my PhD. I'm a professor. I want to inspire my students as I was inspired, but the mere thought of cracking open a book or watching another documentary leaves me feeling exhausted. Tomorrow is the first day of classes and the thought of summoning the energy to truck through another long year is so exhausting.
What happened? Why am I like this today? I'm not even thirty yet? What happened?