When Did I Lose My Thirst For Knowledge? Why?

I used to joke around that I'd be a professional student and never stop going to school because I loved learning. All my life I was fascinated by all the new things that I could learn. I surrounded myself by books, I watched the History channel, PBS, Biography, TLC, just about anything. I had all of my biggest crushes on my professors in college, one in particular, because of his constant quest for knowledge. He made me want to leave class every day and find the answer to yet another question about the world.

So where did it go? I just feel so drained. The last few years of school began to sap all of the energy out of me. Thankfully, I graduated. I have my PhD. I'm a professor. I want to inspire my students as I was inspired, but the mere thought of cracking open a book or watching another documentary leaves me feeling exhausted. Tomorrow is the first day of classes and the thought of summoning the energy to truck through another long year is so exhausting.

What happened? Why am I like this today? I'm not even thirty yet? What happened?
blindbob blindbob
2 Responses Aug 28, 2011

what happened? it seems to me you lost interest... but i wouldn't think that you lost interest in knowledge as a value, because if it was there, it's the hardest thing to loos.<br />
sometimes we loos interest in specific fields, and that's not uncommon at all, i studied law for one year before i lost interest, then i moved towards art, but you should know, knowledge doesn't come only from books or any kind of media, it may come from talking to people, observing nature or traveling.<br />
seeking knowledge is a very noble thing to do, but it should not stop there, there's a stage after that which can't be learned, it happen when you collect what you have learned and fuse it together, to come up with relations, results and concepts of your own, you can call it the harvest of knowledge or wisdom of life if you may, and that is the real purpose of knowledge.<br />
it's something amazing when you see that gleam in your students eyes when you got them interested in something, you feel your life has a purpose and teaching isn't just a job anymore...

I don't really have any advice, but I felt similarly drained after finishing my Master's thesis. I think your listlessness will pass away but I hope you are still able to pass along the love of learning to your students. It's great that you are motivated to do that.