I Need A Father Figure

I'm a 20 year old girl who has lived in a single-parent household for the majority of my life. My parents separated when I was a year old, and since that time I only saw my father a few times. I only really have one memory of actually seeing him. He used to call or write occasionally, but stopped contacting me when I was around 10 years old. I've never really felt connected to him on any level. What I've realized about myself lately is that I'm kind of desperate now to have a father figure in my life. Maybe it's because I'm becoming an adult, and am now realizing what I never had and never can have now. But I'm also realizing that this may have been something that I needed my entire life growing up. Ever since I was little, I would develop crushes on TV and movie characters who were older, and that continues to this day. I used to crave attention from any adult males I knew, which were not many. Most of my friends have fathers in their lives, and it's always fascinated me. I know every father is different, but I'm just interested in how having a father would feel. More than anything, I just want an adult male to take interest in me, be there for me, and care about me and where I'm going in my life. I do have a boyfriend whom I love, but I can't achieve this particular desire in a romantic relationship. I wish there were a way to just adopt a father somehow.
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18-21, F
1 Response May 11, 2012

i know the feeling i never new my father either.if this is anything i can do for you just drop me a line