I Love to Sing
I love to sing so much, but I'm kind of embarrassed about my voice. I don't know if I'm a good singer or not, so I only sing when I'm alone. I'm so paranoid about being heard that I actually do a thorough check of every room in the house before I let out a single note, to make sure I'm alone.
I thought I messed up earlier though. I was in the kitchen, my dad had just left to go to the shops and as far as I knew my mum was working. So I was making a cup of tea, and singing my most baritone version of Mozart's "Lacrimosa", then I went up to my room. An hour later, my dad has returned and called me down for tea. AND I HEAR MY MUM COME OUT OF HER BEDROOM. So by this point I'm panicking, thinking I've been heard, wondering how much I've embarrassed myself.
But there was a little part of me that was pleased. Somewhere inside me, there was this inner confidence that I've never felt before which sprang up and said "Go and see." I was looking forward to hearing what she thought, then maybe I'd know if I can sing or not.
Anyway, as it turns out, she was at work after all. She came home at some point and I didn't notice. I'm relieved...and also a little disappointed...Because I know I can never purposefully sing in front of someone. So I guess I'll never know :/